Have not been here in a while to write. It’s all been kept hidden in my secret and sacred journals. All 30 something of them. Pretty much two for every year of my life starting around 17 years old.
After the last entry in 2016 a LOT happened. Including the Son of Sam himself, David Berkowitz immediately opening up a line of communication with me after sending one letter to him for the first time that I thought would take years of letters to get him to respond to me. Sure enough, sent one letter and boom, two weeks later a letter from him is sitting on my nyc apt bed and I didn’t get to read it or even know it happened until a month after it had been sitting on that bed because also in that time - I ended up going to Costa Rica for Christmas and New Years and got into some trouble. Luckily I was able to get myself out it with my impeccable acting skills that I had just picked up from studying at the Lee Strausberg Film and Television Institute in NYC weeks before the trip. I never thought I would say this but:
“Acting class quite literally saved my life”
It’s been 3+ years since my last entry and it will take more than one blog post to update you. I had been gypsying around without a lease to my name for 2 of those 3 years and it was glorious. Scary af, but glorious none the less as I got to understand what it was like to truly be free and paving your own way. It was not glamorous, but it was glorious. I definitely understood the lyrics of “I get by with a little help from my friends” A LOT more deeply and fully. I was able to survive and begin to thrive with all the magical beings I met along my path of Gypsy-hood
So after a few years of moving to Southern California (North Hollywood/Burbank area) every winter, I kept meeting more new creator friends and working on projects but I was lacking focus (which is a huge issue i’ve been working on for a while to remedy… it’s been better for sure, as you read these words now) After my search and exploration of the beautiful beaches and mountain tops of Malibu and the like, I kept flying and driving cross country gigging, and trying to figure out how to sustain that very lifestyle but with a few upgrades.
I needed a home base to come back and regroup to get back out there. I needed to find my tribe. I needed to reflect on all the amazing information I collected during my Gypsy-education on the road. So in feeling this, I meditated on it and realized as much as I don’t want to feel ‘stuck’ in New Jersey, that when I had left it to go to NYC in the first place after 7 years of building a thriving business there, that it had become my home. In Cali, I would dream of driving down the garden state parkway, to get to the jersey shore and sit at the beach. Cali is a home of mine too now, but New Jersey really had put in the time with me. I had grown to love it as my own. It became even more familiar than my own hometown of Mahopac, New York. So I decided it was time to grow out of my storage unit and car that I had been living out of (along with some hotels and friends couches) and manifest a place that had some magic in it. What they don’t tell you in manifestation school is that magic can be disguised in some really WEIRD places, man. However I trusted my intuition and magically found a place to call my Home Base for the first time ever I had all my “stuff” in one place. I had all my material. Artistically speaking, emotionally speaking, physically speaking, business-ly speaking, socially speaking. All of the speakings.
So in May 2018 I signed the lease to my new dilapidated “magical” studio that I had no idea at the time what was in store for the next year and a half to two years. Once again, I blindly trusted and went with intuition.
aaaaand, i’ll put a pause there for now because I was not intending to write a blog here at all just now and look how much you got out of me. I only came here to update my music page because that is taking off greatly soon (March 1st, check out www.weareheare.com) as my new band HEARE is a love child from the minds and passion of Jonny Rude and myself. It’s going to be fantastic. Check it out once it’s March 1st, 2020.
toodles for now, more focus and organization to come. I promise I won’t take another 3 years to write another blog. Come back and hold me to it.
Love you Beautiful Baby. Appreciate you being here.